now and then

no time to talk, but i wanted my current disposition to be recorded so when i get distracted from it in a few minutes that i can recall my anger and frustration and use them.

it seems, for developers who work project work that your constantly conceeding this or that to survive, and so it goes that you never really get to disperse any notable energy towards what you care about, you end up, to quote an old phrase, "making your living by your labour."

this is fine, most people do. but good programmers and developers, and problems solvers should be making their living by their minds. by their creativity, ability to bring disparate ideas and models into new and interesting manifestations.

in short, you can get any old hack to write code, but if you have a gift for conceptualization and imaging new solutions that should be the heart of your work, and code is an enabler.

i don't live like that, though i should.

lets see if i can fuel this anger into anything meaningful.